In the Beginning

I always felt like a failure. I wasn’t pretty or smart enough. I thought I was fat. I loved animals, particularly horses. Tennis was my game. My body was violated as a young person. I never trusted. Anger was buried deep within.

I married my high school sweetheart twice, which ended in divorce twice. I have lost three children. I had a dune buggy, raced jeeps and won. I smoked cigarettes, drank alcohol, used cocaine and diet pills for eighteen years. I had numerous affairs. I was everyone’s friend. I went from bank teller to telecommunications. I have traveled the country and have had the privilege to work with White House Communications and Executives known around the world.

I went to church growing up but never heard the message of salvation until I was 20 years old. I gave my life to Jesus. But then what? Shortly thereafter I was still striving to please God, but feeling powerless and empty. I was confused to see Christians suffering more than the world. My heart was saying, “Surely there must be more to the Christian life than what I am experiencing.” I was afraid of letting anyone know what I was truly feeling. The pain within me was exceeding the fear. I knew things had to change. I spent endless hours and thirty thousand dollars in Christian counseling, support groups seeking purpose and hope, talking out my problems, making them bigger than God. But nothing changed.

In the End…

You can’t argue with a miracle! The change I was seeking began when I had an encounter with God. Revelation came from God’s Word and everything about me began to change. I began to seek God first (Matt. 6:33), renew my mind (Romans 12:2), and speak His Word (Mark 11:24). Only then did I realize my prescription for life and health (Proverbs 4:20-22).

When you know the truth, the truth will set you free. When you do the truth you know, you are free! Doctors had diagnosed me with cancer, depression, a severe learning disability and a brain tumor. Today, my body and broken heart have been supernaturally healed, family restored, debts paid and my past no longer controls my future. God is no respecter of persons. My story could be yours.

I’m living proof that there’s no dollar amount that can resolve a spiritual problem, which results in low self-esteem, fear, lack of confidence, sickness and pain. All I know is that it pays to pray and it doesn’t cost a dime to renew your mind!